I came across this poem on Facebook today. I've been on the precipice of writing for a few months now. Well actually a decade, but let's not dwell on that. When I saw this poem it felt like I could no longer make the excuse that I was waiting for the right time. I have to start. I have something to say.
There's this story I want to write, it's my story, but not in a memoir sort of way. Maybe fiction with a very autobiographical spin? I'm not sure why, but I do keep asking myself, "is it for validation?" Many years of therapy have taught me to ask this question first. I grew up begging to be seen, and unfortunately that's given me a bad habit of looking to others for validation and approval. I'm working on it. I'm hoping that if I just start writing something, anything, that the story will come out.
Do people still read blogs? I don't know. I do, when the topic seems interesting. I don't follow them anymore, but maybe I should.
This is a long rambling way to say that I'm giving this another go. It's going to be different, because I'm not a homeschool blogger, and I don't want to be a mom blogger either. (No offense to mom blogs, I still like them! It's just not me.) I want to have conversations about parenting, especially through pain, or while you're healing from trauma, but I don't want to write about lunch boxes and stocking stuffers. (Even though I love both of those things!) I want to write about minimalism, and meditating and slowing down, because those are things that I'm dwelling on these days. I want to write about the books I read, the books I love, and maybe the books my kids read and love too, because those are very important to me too. I want to write about how to live a creative life, especially if you have young kids to care for, and how to nurture their creativity. I'm still into photography so I want to post pictures from time to time, but I don't want this to be a photo blog.
I guess I don't know what this is, or what I'm doing, but I'm doing it anyways, because humans still need connection and my favorite way to do that is with words.